These Boots

Ok so I don’t have any excuse for my terrible absence of blogging over this period of time.  All I can say is that not much happened.  I found out one of my closest friends is pregnant (Laura) which is fantastic.  I truly believe that she will make a fantastic mum.  Tom’s dad has booked a holiday for the three of us in Greece, we are going sailing which I am really looking forward to.  At this point my job stability was still under a question mark. And thats about it for what happened then.  It is for the 17th onwards that I have a valid excuse and all hell broke loose……

Ok I’ll skip the personal chastisement and get straight to it.

6th January was Tuesday and I don’t recall much happening.  Work was slow so I got very bored.  Tom came to see me after work which was lovely.

7th January work was again very boaring.  Dad managed to contact the waiting list person at the hospital and it turns out I am 2 months away from being treated! Its ridiculous, I had my pre-op at the end of October for crying out loud, I should have been treated by now! I was looking forward to starting the new year being able to eat food as I wished but now I can’t because the wonderful NHS is dragging its heels.  The same NHS, by the way, that didn’t trust a student to know the difference between acid reflux and an actual problem for FIVE YEARS, who sent her for 3 useless tests one of which resulted in a weeks stay in hospital and who when a diagnosis was finally reached didn’t have the decency to grant a consultancy with the surgeon because he was on holiday in India. I am SICK TO DEATH of people pissing all over my problem I would like to see every person (including my own mother) who has told me ‘its in your head’ or ‘its just acid reflux’ to suffer this problem for just a week and maybe then I might actually get taken seriously.  I struggle so much to eat I have dropped three dress sizes, my skin is terribly dry and I am unhealthy because I can not eat anything near a balanced diet!  I know I’m ranting but people need to know just how truly the NHS has screwed me over and I’ve had enough.  Anyway the consultants secretary told me to get a note from my doctor to say that I am still losing weight, the more I lose the harder my recovery will be, maybe this will speed me up the list little.  I’m not hopeful.  Had I the money I would go private I am tired of fighting to be healthy.  Next rant….Tom and I went swimming on Wednesday night which was lovely I really enjoyed it. However, the pool (Richard Dunn’s Sport Centre) was not what I would call worth the £3.70 we paid for it.  A water aerobics class was going on at the same time as the quiet little swim we had wanted, so we had to listen to crappy music and a woman, so thin she disappeared if she turned sideways, screaming at ladies to ‘get those legs up!’.  There was a plaster at the side of the pool, hardly any room for those wanting to swim laps, hard lumps growing out of the side of the pool and the staff were rude.  Esporta Health Club is looking really tempting right now.  I then went back to Tom’s for a coffee after which Tom took me home and I went straight to bed.

8th January.  I got up and went to work, I met Shauna on the bus.  The morning was quite quiet but the afternoon was incredibly busy, I told Andy about what the hospital had said and he seemed shocked.  My work colleagues were also shocked and appalled at the length of my wait.  So I got the bus home with Shauna after work and when we got home little Alexis-mya was full of beans after nursery and it was lovely to see her.  So then I had tea and put on Boston Legal and now I am writing my blogg.  I will try my hardest to remember to blogg tomorrow. Honest.  Take care.

All I can say is Oooops!!!  Let me try and catch up….again.

Saturday 3rd January.  Stayed in bed quite late at Toms when we got up everyone was out.  We had coffee, then I read while Tom worked on his computer.  Toria and Paul then arrived (Tom’s sister and brother-in-law) to collect Charlie (their 5 year old son) who had stayed over.  After they had gone we had a lovely tea and then sat and watched telly for a while.  Tom and I snuggled and then he took me home at about 11.30 and which point I checked my phone and realised my 9 am driving lesson had been moved to 8am! So when I got home I went straight to bed!

Sunday 4th January.  I set my alarm for 7.15 and snoozed it until about 7.35 at which point I finally dragged my sleepy butt out of my lovely warm bed.  I was ready for Paul (driving instructor) but I think my driving suffered a little from my late night, I couldn’t seem to get much right first time where my manouvers were concerned, though my driving around was fine.  When my lesson ended Iwent back to bed and the next thing I remember is my dad coming into my room to ask me if I was getting up today.  I said ‘yes eventually’ and when he had gone out I checked my clock on my phone.  It was 2.20pm!  I got up, got a shower and got dressed while watching  few episodes of Buffy.  There was a knock at the door which I answered and it was Diane, Shauna and Alexis (Step-mum, step-sister and niece).  I made coffee and we sat and had a chat and waited for dad to get back from Morrisons.  He did and we continued to chat until about 5.25 when I took the dog for a walk.  When I got back dad and I had tea and watched a few episodes of Boston Legal.  Then we drank some wine and had a fantastic chat where I may have ranted about everything and anything that was on my mind (I was a little drunk).  I think it helped to say what was bubbling around inside my noggin and it was lovely to have a good chin wag with my dad.  I eventually went to bed and fell straight to sleep.

5th January.  Today it was incredibly hard to get out of bed, I really didn’t want to.  I got up and dressed and had a quick coffee then went to catch my bus.  On the bus I started reading Wuthering Heights, I was expecting it to be a kind of sense and sensibility style mushy novel but it doesn’t appear that way.  When I got to work I found I was the only one there in the lab (George was booking in, Anna was reading and Janine and Sarah hadn’t arrived yet) so I started the morning jobs.  I asked Andy if I could have a meeting about my contract of which I don’t really have one.  When we finally got around to it he said one of our biggest customers hadn’t yet renewed the sample list and therefore until he knew what they were going to do, he didn’t know what he could ‘offer me’.  So instead of asking for the pay rise as I intended I am now faced with the prospect of possibly being out of a job.  So I’m a little nervous and hope that this customer renews the sample list.  I went home had tea and watched more Boston Legal with dad and now I’m sat writing my blog.  But now I’m going to bed hopefully to sleep but with an insecure job I’m not sure how easily sleep will come.  Take care.

I remembered to blogg!!!! Well today has been quite a productive day (of sorts).  I went to work and since we were low on staff ran around like a headless chicken, along with everyone else, so we could leave early, which we did at 2pm.  I went home and on the way renewed my buspass for a week (not really worth getting more than that because I don’t know when my operation will be), I drew some money out of the bank for my driving lesson, I then went home and did lots of boaring chores.

I have been in a strange mood today.  I have been incredibly irritable and I think I may have snapped at my dad a few times which I always feel bad about.  He’s a great guy and I don’t ever mean to snap I think I’m just tired.  I hate using that as an excuse, its stupid! I must try harder not to snap at people when I’m feeling irritable (or I should get more sleep).  He’s the guy who’s always been there for me and he doesn’t deserve to have my moodiness taken out on him.

I am at Tom’s house now.  Looking forward to a good sleep!  Its always wonderful spending time with Tom he makes everything that I think is terrible seem unimportant.  I do kind of feel I’ve neglected my dad a bit and I miss him so I will spend some time with him on Sunday after my driving lesson.  Speak soon and take care.

Ok, its official.  I am RUBBISH at keeping a diary.  It’s been 3 days since I last “blogged”.  Let me think, what have I done since then?  

The 30th December I went to work, Tom picked me up afterwards which was great!  We then dropped Shauna at home and went to see my dad.  He wasn’t in though so we went on the fancy dress costume trail.  Tom got lots of green face paint for his Hulk costume but I didn’t find anything in that shop and got a little miffed (sorry Tom).  We then went to Tesco’s which was Tom’s fab idea, it was decided that I would go as Ellen Ripley and I bought some combat pants and a T-shirt.  I had tea at Tom’s which was lovely and went home for sleep before work the next day.

The 31st December I got up and went to work, we got a lot of swabs in to process at 12.30 but woring as a team we managed to get them finished quickly and Andy let us leave at 1 pm.  Dave, one of our drivers, was leaving at the same time I was and very generously offered me a lift home which was so much better than my 1 1/4 hour bus journey.  When I got home I chatted to dad, did some washing and a bit of tidying up in my bedroom.  I then got a lovely hot bath and soaked myself for a while.  Tom arrived while I was still in the bath and he sprayed his hair green outside.  After I had got out of the bath and was dresed we started to make him green.  He did most of it while I did my hair and dried himself with my hairdrier.  I did one coat on his back and then went to get tea.  After that I did a second coat of green on Tom’s back.  We then left for the party at Danni’s house.  It was a really great night.  Tom went for dad not long after we got there, who arrived dressed as Jesus with Sky (the dog) in tow.  After much drinking, reminiscing and laughs, I fell asleep on the sofa at which point Tom took dad home and then came back for myself and Sabrine and Kurt.  We took our friends home and then went to Tom’s (arriving at 3.30 am) and a welcoming shower for Tom and then bed!

And here we are on the 1st January 2009, I am sat in bed watching a Buffy dvd because I can’t sleep.  Got up at about 1pm had coffee and watched some TV with Tom, I then decided I would read my book (well e-reader) whie he continued watching.  We then moved upstairs so Tom could play guitar while I read, however I believe I fell asleep and when I woke up he was playing comouter games and his sister, brother in law and nephew had arrived.  We went down stairs to greet everyone and had a lovely afternoon eating fantastic food and chatting, Steph, Nigel and Josh arrived as well which was lovely.  I then went home and finished my book (which was ‘The Picture of Dorian Gray’), and now I’m writing my blogg.

I will try my hardest to remember to keep up with this diary.  I promise.  Speak to you tomorrow! Take care.

This is my first entry formy diary and I don’t have much to report.  Got up and went to work, we had a steady day and Andy (the boss) let us go early which was nice.  I got home at about 4.45, did some washing had a coffee and then got uploading photos onto facebook. And now I’m sat here typing my blog.  I intend to update my blog every night though I was never very good at keeping a diary.  Well talk to you tomorrow. Take care.